I had enough starting back in the Spring of 2009. I started to change my life then and I am still continuing that path 2 years later. It isn't an easy process, but it is a valuable process...it is a life or death process if you think about it. I chose to live and live for a long time! I love living! It feels good and even when the hard times come, there is always something worth living for.. YOURSELF! I still have my struggles, but I keep going. I have my set backs, my gains and losses, but I keep going. I have my days that working out is the furthest away from my thoughts, but I keep going. Being here at the Biggest Loser Resort, I have found others just like me. Other people who are fighting for their life. Fighting to find their definition of FIT! Fighting every day, 12 hours a day (with classes) to figure out how they can tweak the way they are living just a little and get BIG results. That is one of the greatest blessings of this place. It is a place to find YOU again, or even to discover the person you never knew was waiting to come out!
Already in day TWO I have seen awakenings (that I felt my first time ever here, and hope to find even deeper parts of it on this stay) in other newly found friends. It has been so neat to hear how this program is affecting them, and how they plan to incorporate that into their lives and BELIEVE in themselves again! My new friend Danielle (I talked about her and her Sister a few posts ago) posted this last night and I think she said it beautifully, made me shed tears as I read her words:
"I have never been pushed mentally or physically like this in my entire life. There are no words to describe how life changing this has been and it's only day 1...IF I ever go back to an unhealthy lifestyle....SHOOT ME DIRECTLY BETWEEN MY EYES WITH A LARGE GUN. There is no pain in eating healthy, but the pain felt today has changed my entire outlook on the rest of my life. Worth every cent, second of time, and ounce of sweat and vomit, but HOLY CRAP...I surrender. No more."I couldn't agree with her more! The amount of work we are doing 8 hrs a day to get this weight off is not worth all the food on the planet! Every ounce of unhealthy living is beaten off us in the gym or pool ounce by ounce, minute by minute, hour by hour, day by day. The emotion of awakening to such a realization that you are the one that did this to yourself is quite a hefty load to bear. But knowing that choices now can change the way your future is lived is what gets us to our classes all day.
Biggest Loser Resort isn't naive enough to act as though we are going to do this amount of workout every day for the rest of our lives, and that is why they hammer it into us why we are here. Not only are we being worked out, we are being taught ways, products and plans that we can incorporate into our everyday life so that we still don't have to be deprived, we still can live lives, attend and eat at social events and still keep working toward our goals to live a healthy lifestyle. It isn't an all or nothing, it is finding a balance.
My calves are so tight right now that I feel they may break apart. My arms are heavy and if I tried to lift them above my head, I may tip over. But, my heart is happy. My spirit is rejuvenated. My self love and determination is still in check and even stronger each day that I make it through these challenging workouts. I CAN DO HARD THINGS! I know this. I feel it every day I fight through a challenging workout, walk with very tight calves, hike a long steep hill, run a sprint on a treadmill for 2 minutes, or hold 8 lbs weights above my head. I am a fighter for things that are right. Taking care of my body is right and I will fight and see it through to the end! For the first time in my life, I am learning to put MY NEEDS first and not feeling guilty about it! I AM WORTH IT!
So today, I gave it my all. I went to my classes and enjoyed them. Fought through the pain and exceeded my expectations. Here is a run down of DAY 2:
Cardio Intervals is a class ANYONE can do with ANY equipment that they have! You warm up for about 5 minutes on a machine of your choice. Then you bump up the level on the machine one up every 30 seconds till you do that 8 times. Once you have done that 8 times you stay at the highest level you got to for 1 minute. Then you start to go down one level a time, 30 seconds apart. You do that over and over for 45 minutes. It is amazing how doing that little makes you sweat A LOT!